deadSnowflake

2010/03/09

Sex is to body, weed is to mind!!

Filed under: Personal experience — karanfreud @ 17:16

Sex is to body, weed is to mind!!

My first experience:

Statutory warning: Never take drugs!

Contradiction is the essence of life! My first experience of taking a drug, and so-called statutory warning,  mentioned above, don’t go together.

We are born naked, wet, and hungry, and get slapped on our butt … then things get worse. It starts with your first experience(s!!). Your first break up, critics, intercourse out of frustration, unwanted advices….  Long list follows which can consume the entire length of the page(s). Out of all, first drug experience is something that you don’t want to forget, and don’t want to get reminded of. Contradiction! That was one feeling transcending all. Though, I’m not much into cricket, but that day, sachin tendulkar scored more runs than usual, so we were drunk more than usual. Someone started rolling a joint, and for obvious reasons I can’t remember who. Marijuana, weed, pot, grass, ganja…. Like god, weed also has got many names. It gets you so close to god as if you feel,  anytime you can meet him! My girl-friend too used to make me feel same. Most of us ‘consumed’ it that day, but, I was the only beginner. I took more of it, as I strongly believe that either you can think, or you can do. Six pegs down, you can’t think. So I did it! For a few minutes nothing happened, and if everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something. And then, everything started happening.

That was one feeling transcending all. My heartbeats were fast, faster than the time I used to enter arena, faster than the time when I had my first operation. My blood was dying to flow out of my nerves. I didn’t feel my body. I wasn’t my body, my body wasn’t me. I was on cloud nine, I was buried deep inside. Inside what, I never understood. My all five senses were partially alive. Nature works on the basis of give and take philosophy. Henceforth, I became aware of five new senses. Humans are considered to have at least five additional senses that include:  pain, balance, joint motion, acceleration, sense of time (temperature differences); and possibly an additional weak directional sense. All these were ruling over my body. I wanted to scratch my back, but didn’t have power to move my hands. I wanted someone to help me out with this, but didn’t have courage to speak. We all do small strange things that we don’t do in front of anybody. I was doing them. My faith in hedonism strengthened. But I was finding myself at an inch’s distance from death. I wasn’t sure if I was going to get up next morning, or any other morning. World went into flashback within moments and came back to contemporary. Process repeated itself without stopping until I found myself slept, or may be unconscious.

I woke up next morning!

Alive!

Note of innocence: That was my first and last time! I have been offered after that, but why to choose a way where you don’t want to see yourself!!

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